Today, is the day! August 1, 2012. The first day I can go into my classroom and work. I am excited, overwhelmed, & anxious. The best part...I haven't even left my house yet! I am excited to get back in my room, to put things where I want them, to organize, to make things look cute for my new little group of firsties. I am overwhelmed because I know boxes are going to be everywhere, desks, chairs, bookshelves - the thought actually makes me want to cry just a little bit and question myself - Am I ever going to get everything done? Then of course I am anxious...anxious to leave my boys. How are they going to be without me these first few days? What am I going to miss? Am I going to regret going back early to get things finished because I won't be spending this time with my boys? They are only little once...these things are only going to happen once. And someone else is going to enjoy it - or maybe they won't - and that makes my heart sad & a knot form in the back of my throat & tears sting my eyes. Tears, that I fight back... tears that sting & make me wonder am I doing all the right things?
Looking at these sweet faces - I know I am going to be sad & I know I am going to miss them so very much!
But I need to remind myself, that they will be fine. This is harder for me than it is for them. They aren't anxious at all - they just want to have fun, play, and be little boys. That is what I want for them as well, but I just want to be with them as they do it. Watch them, hear them, smell them, & giggle with them!
