The Good & The Better

This morning I was feeling so pumped about the day. I left for work on time and even had time to spare to get some pictures of my boys (but of course I can't post them today because my desktop is acting crazy), had taken dinner out to thaw, and everything was just falling in place.

My class came in today so quietly and so wonderfully. I was so happy for them and for me. The morning went great! I was going strong and so were my kids. Then I hit that dreaded bump in the road - that one I call POWER STRUGGLE! That is the ONE thing I can't stand but alas it happens all the time. Today it happened at recess! I was blown away and from recess it extended into class time. Why you ask? I am not sure, I did everything to redirect but it didn't work. It pretty much made me forget about all those wonderful moments that I listed. It almost wiped the slate clean and made me say that I had an AWFUL day. Actually, if I am being honest that is what I was thinking when I took my students to dismissal today. I couldn't wait to get home, relax, and forget about the day. I was even ready to tell my husband what an awful day it was for me at work.

As I walked out of the school building this evening I just felt blah and all because of the end of the day; however walking out of that building always makes me happy. As I am leaving that building I get to walk through the doors of the extended daycare program and see a smiling, blonde haired boy is actually happy to see me. His face lights up and his smile brightens my day. He is one of my big miracles and everyday I thank God for him. God blessed me with him and showed me that miracles happen everyday even to me, just an ordinary person. This made me think and reflect on the day as put that miracle in my car. It wasn't a bad day. It didn't end the way I wanted it too but overall it was a good day. I smiled a lot and I taught a great group of children. I was able to pick up that sweet boy that I love from daycare and that sassy teenager from high school. I was able to hug and kiss my husband when he came home with my other sweet boy, who was just as happy to see me and give me hugs and kisses. Not only am I totally blessed by God but sometimes I just need to stop and reflect and make myself see all the great things that are happening to me every single day because of him.

Tonight at dinner I was able to realize again what a great day it was. Now I know most families don't do this anymore but we strive to have a family dinner every single night of the week. Most nights it works out, the only nights that we seem to have problems are weekend nights (really just Friday and Saturday). We all sat down for dinner tonight and Colin started yelling across the table at Cade. Cade would repeat whatever Colin would say and Colin would laugh hysterically. This went on for a good five minutes and my heart was filled with joy and love. My boys truly love each other and for that I am extremely blessed.

Before I end this for tonight I just want to ask that if you have any prayers to spare a few for my good friend. She was almost 7 weeks pregnant and started spotting on Monday. She rushed to the doctor's office to be told the baby's heartbeat was only 56 beats per minute. This was not the news she had hoped to hear. They told she would miscarry it was just a matter of when. The doctor wanted to be aggressive and put her on progesterone twice a day until her next appointment. She was supposed to go in on Monday but just couldn't hold out until then and who can blame her. She went in today and the baby had no heartbeat. My heart is just broken for her. I know the pain of a miscarriage but sometimes I think might is different only because I didn't know about the baby until I lost it. I didn't have the opportunity to be excited and happy. I found out and it ended all in the same day. My friend was excited, she was so happy and just couldn't wait for this sweet baby to be here in May. Tomorrow she will be going through a a DNC. I know this will be a very difficult time for and I am just hoping if you have a chance you could possibly lift her up in prayer. I know all things happen for a reason because it is God's plan and sometimes we just aren't able to see if all at the time. I know she will get through this because God is carrying her through. If you prayer for her, send her a good though, whatever positive support you can send she will and I will appreciate it.