If you have a chance today please say a prayer for this sweet little baby, Mason. He was born way too early, just like my sweet Cade. They both thought arriving into this world at 23 weeks 5 days would be a great idea. When I first, read this prayer request yesterday my heart broke. I could feel tears start to sting my eyes and a lump form in my throat - just like now. Even though my journey was 6 and half years ago, the memories are still fresh. The smell of the hospital, the heartbreak, the roller coaster ride, the doctors, the sounds of the NICU...
I remember the emotional roller coaster ride that I took with Cade. We had good days, great days, bad days, & the worst days. Every. single. day was touch and go for the longest time. I remember the first two weeks of his life so very vividly. We spent it at the Ronald McDonald House in Jacksonville. I went to the hospital every single day and sat for hours and hours at a time. I would just look at him and tears would stream down my face. My life was consumed with the hospital and everything about my sweet baby boy. The thought that he might not make it was ALWAYS in the back of my head, always. I never said the words though, I just couldn't say them. One day, when I was physically, mentally, & emotionally exhausted, Larry was driving me back to the Ronald McDonald House. He was suggesting that we go grab dinner somewhere and get away from the hospital. He knew I needed to get away, but that I wouldn't allow myself too. I actually didn't know I needed to get away - I just wanted to be with my baby. He got upset with me, and told me that I was doing all the right things but I was NOT taking care of myself. He even pointed out that I needed to face reality and think about the fact that Cade might not make it. I remember the true heartbreak I felt. It was not something I wanted to hear out loud, but it was true. I know that Cade isn't supposed to be the way he is today, I know that he beat the odds, and really isn't supposed to be here. But he is truly our miracle baby and I know that sweet Mason will be able to keep up the fight as well if we all continue to pray for him.
God gives us miracles!
The BEST doctor, EVER!
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